Monday, April 26, 2010

Willow Tree

This one's entitled "Grandmother".
I gave it to my mother following the Memorial Service.

A friend of mine, Theresa R., gave this to me. It's called "The Angel of Spring". Which is so fitting considering the season we're in and the fact that as a family we are beginning a new chapter of life... a genesis...

From the Memorial Service

A beautiful bouquet we received from our friends Jim and Tammi P.
Auntie Shauna made headbands for the girls:

(Hey... wait a minute!)
Edmund's secure enough in his manhood to pull this one off. *grin*
The table

A closeup of the embroidery on the blanket that my friend Rebekah M. made. It's a bit shiny, but it says Francesca Rose, April 9, 2010.

The bib was made by my friend Laura H.
Those are Francesca's hair clippings on the pink satin fabric.
The box was for cards.

A beautiful bracelet handmade by my friend Hannah C.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Memorial Service

Please remember and pray for RD and I (and the kids) tomorrow as we are having Francesca's Memorial Service. It will be at 11am. If you'd like service information, please email me at growthasawifeandmom(at)yahoo(dot)com.

Thursday, April 22, 2010


I think my milk has finally dried up! One less painful physical reminder...

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Memorial Portrait

A lady from our church, Sarah L., is an AMAZING artist. She painted this (watercolor) as a Memorial for Francesca. The Scripture at the bottom is difficult to read, but it says this:
"All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

The two leaves on the right signify RD and I.
The leaves on the left signify Arianna, Benjamin, Cassandra, Baby "D", and Edmund.
It's absolute breathtaking!

Monday, April 19, 2010

More on Francesca

Pregnancy Loss ribbon

Her footprints. We weren't able to get her prints transferred to paper so this is all we have.

Hair clippings.

Only have 16 lbs of baby weight to work off.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Francesca's urn

A dear friend from church who is an amazing artist painted this rose on Francesca's urn. It is JUST gorgeous!!! She also woodburned her name and stats on the bottom.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

How we're doing.

We are doing well, considering the circumstances. We have absolutely been showered with love, prayers, help, food, childcare, etc. We had no idea so many people cared! People have been literally coming out of the woodwork to help when and where they can. We were afraid people would be nervous talking and being with us because they wouldn't know what to say. WE don't even know what to say!!! It's just soooo incredibly healing to talk and be with people.

Physically, I am healing like any other delivery. We were concerned at first about infection but have been blessed with a quick recovery. My breasts are still very very tender as they are engorged with milk. But I've been drinking sage tea (bleh- it tastes like liquid pine needles) and wearing tight fitting bras. From what I've read and heard, I should dry up within the week. It'll be soooo nice when the physical reminders of what happened go away.

The preliminary autopsy revealed that Francesca was a completely healthy and normal baby. No genetic disorders. No cord problems. The doctor doing the autopsy said "this was an act of God". At first, I was SO angry! WHAT?!!! Our baby was fine?!!! How and why did she die then?!!! But we realized that if something had been wrong with her, we would have to get genetics testing and any future pregnancy would be terribly frightening as we'd wonder if this baby would die, too. We know we can get pregnant, sustain pregnancy, and have healthy children. This was ordained by God from eternity past to happen. She was HIS child!

RD and I have NO idea why this happened. But God in all His mercy and grace has shown us in more ways then we can count that this was providential. The timing of it all, the birth process itself, people being at the right time at the right place, etc. This was meant to happen. We have no doubt or question about that! Hopefully in the near future when I get a chance to put this all down into words, I'll share the many many many ways we have seen this as providence.

There is this amazing company that does photo restoration specifically for stillbirth or babies that die soon after birth. It's called Baby Angel Pics. It's a free service! The photos we have of her are... unpleasant. So we are simply thrilled to do this! Perhaps we may catch a glimpse of what she could or would have looked like...

We have decided to cremate her and keep the ashes. A Memorial Service for Francesca is scheduled for Saturday April 24 at 11am. For anyone interested in information about the service, in contributing to her Memorial Fund, or sending cards/flowers/gifts, please email me at: growthasawifeandmom(at)yahoo(dot)com.

We thank you for all the many prayers that you have been lifting up on our behalf. And we are soooo appreciative of the support and love you have shared.

Some things you can specifically be praying for are:
1- that RD and I don't mentally go off into left field thinking wrong thoughts about this situation. Pray that we remain grounded on the truth we know to be true: that our God is a good God and that He uses evil for good; that He has plans to prosper us and not to harm us.
2- for RD and I's marriage to remain strong, that this would in fact bring us closer as a couple to one another and to God.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Francesca Rose

It is with great sadness we report that Francesca Rose was born yesterday evening at 8:30pm stillborn. Still awaiting autopsy results. Funeral arrangements are still pending. RD and I wish to thank friends and family for your love and support. We are doing as well as can be expected. Not sure yet what we need, as we are still in shock over everything. Will keep you posted.

Thursday, April 01, 2010

37 weeks!!!

Had my midwife appointment this morning and everything looks great! I'm right at 37 weeks so I've officially entered the "Walking Time Bomb" stage of pregnancy. Good strong heart beat. Head down, although, not engaged. But the midwife said that's not a concern seeing as how I've had 4 previous children and I'm a bit more "roomy". The baby may not even engage until the onset of labor. So... I'll keep everyone posted. When I go into labor I will be sure and put in an entry about it. Now, if the baby's listening, he/she will know to come next weekend because my parents will be down for a visit. ;-)